Okay, Facebook and Instagram, you took away one of my healthiest habits in the whole internet thing, which is writing about my journey. But, once more, I am trying to rescue it. It IS important enough to keep trying. Even if people in this world of instant gratification do not have a lot of patience for words, it is important to me. It is delightful and gratifying when I read what I wrote years back; it gives me perspective and hope and keeps me in track with my truth.
It is a shame that today it happens to be exactly two years from my last entry. Two. Entire. Years.
I did a lot during these years, but not even close to what I wanted or expected to do. And when 2017 started and I was done with the Beyond the Sea (Seattle) and Beneath the Tumult (Portland) shows, I knew I had to change a lot of things about my art and the way I’ve been conducting business, dealing with galleries, and other not-so-glamourous sides of being a full time artist – and, believe me, aside from creating art, practically all the rest goes in this category. I was absolutely fed up with a lot of things.
As I grow older, I get less and less interested in bringing more chaos and confusion to my life, which is not an easy task. I have SERIOUS problems attempting to get organized and establishing methodologies of living, so the best option to guarantee my sanity is keeping everything around to a minimum. So my show rhythm had to be reduced. I was making about 10 shows a year, which is almost one per month; and with my decreasing interest for the pop surrealism scene (a niche I was inserted in pretty much by chance, due to the illustrative character of my work) and the changes in the art market, with brick-an-mortar gallery shows being pretty much a bad business A LOT of the times, I decided to decelerate. And breathe.
So lately my reason to wake up in the morning is to do exclusively figurative/abstract work. I want to take time for exploration and discovery, because that’s what art is all about.
The exploration is also inside. Because although I love to make narrative art about other worlds, I also want to look within and bring the pieces of myself I never talk about to light. So the body of work I’ve been creating lately it’s more about my own stories, mark making, and mood. It is not a new thing, and if you have followed me for a while you know I have, since the beginning, flirted with this type of freedom, but I think it is getting more courageous now.
As artists, what makes our work unique is all the stories of the inside that need to be told.
That doesn’t mean I will be leaving the illustration realm so soon, since there are stories that are better told using the tools of symbolic and surreal imagery. I have a type of freedom with illustrative work that I don’t have with the paintings, and vice-versa, and I want to keep the experience of both worlds. They are temporarily out of the website since the plan is to give them a home of their own. I don’t intend to display them in shows anymore unless I have a very good reason or a very good proposal for such.