i have been totally absorbed in my seek for satisfactory solutions for my new works. it has not been easy. i am a perfectionist. i don’t feel happy with anything that sounds shallow or meaningless. and i have my ideals about what my art in particular should be. there are points in the artist’s development when you feel like you have to move on, to explore new things, to find new meanings to what you are doing. people love my ornamented, klimtish, colorful stuff. well, i do too. i took years of my life to find out that i was a colorful person inside — in spite of wearing black all the time — and that reflected in my art. however, i have to confess that, during the process of my art making, there’s a point, when the final color glazes have not yet started to be applied, when i strangely sense that “this is it” feeling, but for an urge of pouring color and ornaments everywhere i end up losing the momentum.
(i don’t know if i am making any sense at all.)
i’ve been trying, among others things, to hold the feeling of “that’s enough, you don’t need to scream so loud to make sense and be beautiful”, the minimalism, the serenity and silence. i think i got that once with “Waterlily”. Eastern philosophies teaches us about the meaning of the emptiness, and that reflects in their art. i think that one of the things that transmits that peacefulness you experience when observing a piece of Chinese or Japanese art, for example, besides the softness of the lines and colors, is the use of space. in most works, at least 30% of the area is an empty space. empty, but absolutely meaningful — that emptiness is exactly what expresses reverence. here in the West, the emptiness bothers us. we just cannot be minimal. we have to fill up every space with stuff. when i paint, the background is the part that most bothers — and intrigues — me. i just can’t leave the background alone and concentrate in the figure. i’ve tried many things, and if i don’t fill up the space with little triangles, swirls and other visual paraphernalia, i don’t feel good about the painting.
the approach i’ve been trying for a while is integration and adaptation. working on the background first, and then adding to it. make the figure to adapt to what the background commands. which is also sort a philosophical approach. to go with the flow, to dance according to the music. do not force, do not fight. just adapt. use the force you consider an enemy as an ally.